oh hi
it’s just me
(colette)
chipping away on pervette
i know, the progress seems very glacial
as i’m still in the process
of learning how to express myself
i’m still learning how to find my voice
i mean i’m still learning how to write
some days i get super excited and feel like i have so many ideas waiting to be poured into here. other days i just want to go for a long walk and not be near this computer
yes i’m still learning how to discipline myself
i’m getting a little bit better each day
(i promise)
.
it’s tricky because it’s not only content that i have to be disciplined about creating, it’s structure
how do i structure pervette so that it can flow?
this is what i’ve been tinkering with for years now
all i can do is feel my way,
does this feel right
or fluid
.
when i get stuck
i change it up.
.
but y’know it’s not only the structure that i’m playing around with, it’s my tone as well
how do i want to express myself to you?
i keep thinking that it has to sound like my voice
it has to be an expression of my authentic self
whatever that means
.
so to that end, i’ve been working on myself
trying to be as honest as i can
with my speech and writing
which is new to me.
.
i’m a pleaser
or was.
.
so that’s what’s going on. i’m trying to work on this thing as i’m work on myself
.
i’m just making dots right now.
at some point
it’s all going to click
(i cam almost feel it)
i just wanted to see
if i could create a website that fits me perfectly
can i build a space that allows for my quirks, connections and visions to be fully expressed?
for example since i have this perfectionist problem
i have a hard time showing my work, it’s always a work in profress