oh hi

it’s just me

(colette)

chipping away on pervette

i know, the progress seems very glacial

as i’m still in the process

of learning how to express myself

i’m still learning how to find my voice

i mean i’m still learning how to write

some days i get super excited and feel like i have so many ideas waiting to be poured into here. other days i just want to go for a long walk and not be near this computer

yes i’m still learning how to discipline myself

i’m getting a little bit better each day

(i promise)

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it’s tricky because it’s not only content that i have to be disciplined about creating, it’s structure

how do i structure pervette so that it can flow?

this is what i’ve been tinkering with for years now

all i can do is feel my way,

does this feel right

or fluid

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when i get stuck

i  change it up.

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but y’know it’s not only the structure that i’m playing around with, it’s my tone as well

how do i want to express myself to you?

i keep thinking that it has to sound like my voice

it has to be an expression of my authentic self

whatever that means

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so to that end, i’ve been working on myself

trying to be as honest as i can

with my speech and writing

which is new to me.

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i’m a pleaser

or was.

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so that’s what’s going on. i’m trying to work on this thing as i’m work on myself

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i’m just making dots right now.

at some point

it’s all going to click

(i cam almost feel it)

 

 

 

i just wanted to see

if i could create a website that fits me perfectly

can i build a space that allows for my quirks, connections and visions to be fully expressed?

 

 

for example since i have this perfectionist problem

i have a hard time showing my work, it’s always a work in profress