Dear Ba1Dad
I’m trying to reach you.
I begin at your end.
.
There was no good bye.
Just a I’ll call you next Saturday.
I keep recalling that last call.
It was the shortest call.
.
You’ve always been a mystery to me.
And now
How you left
Leaves more questions
No answer
You always call at 10am every Saturday
I never pick up
.
7 hours pass
18 missed calls later
I call you back
Worried sick you yell at me
Where were you?
I just wasn’t near my phone
You always thought the worst
That something terrible happened
.
I get why you called J
And not me
at 4:13am
that Monday morning
when my phone was on silent
upstairs
when something terrible did happen
.
why did you go like that
I would’ve never thought
the worst
way to die
is suicide
mom says
your suffering continues
when you leave before your time
.
I don’t want to believe that
.
my heart still hurts
knowing what you did to yours
.
Mom says
all we can do now is pray
for you
.
Ba
I pray
that you can hear me
when I say
Con nhớ Ba
Con thương Ba
Con xin lỗi Ba
Con nghe loi Ba
.
I wish
I picked up the phone
I wish
I got a chance to tell you
I recorded our conversations
.
All of them2for the past 5 years
.
Just so you know
I know I’m a little late
But I’m ready now
I’m finally listening..