Sunday, June 9, 2019

From what I can remember..

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It’s the day I do my two sessions with the women at Breakup Bootcamp.

I woke up calm. I didn’t do my usual over-prepping the night before. I figure I try something new this time. Which was to under prepare and see how that goes..

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As always, every time I do it, it’s a little different, I keep on adding something. this time I’m adding a lot of new content. Some carried over from my downloads I received for the Domme Bootcamp.

 

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I did it. I delivered.

They cried, they laughed.

Some were resistant, one was about to walk out on one of my ” surprise exercises” but surrendered, and were happy that they did.

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I felt different doing it this time, even more calm than the last. The nerves are almost gone.

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The women came up to me afterwards, wanting to chat more. The things I said brought things up for them, they’re reconsidering their ideas and beliefs about relationships, how it ought to be.

A lot of them realized they were living in their projected fantasy..

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A2 said that was my best session yet.

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I did 4 consultations with the woman. Which is mostly deep listening, then offering advice on how to get unstuck or out of their bondage.

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One can’t stop thinking about her emotionally abusive jealous ex. She feels like a caged animal afraid to come out even though her abuser is gone and the door is wide open.

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Many feel like they’re “late”in the sex game. They lost their virginity “too late,” haven’t had much experience with pleasuring themselves, they’ve faked so many orgasms they don’t know how to have one themselves.

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Many struggle with their bodies..

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I did two sessions. One solo, second with A2.

Us and our swivel barstools up front. We swivel with our backs to them and whisper our next thing to say/do, that’s our “office hours”

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Dinner was yummy salmon and veggies, and E’s magic crack cake.

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Monday, June 10, 2019

Last day of Breakup Bootcamp.

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The women we parted. A2 and I head to Kerhonksen to see the Bone Setter.

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As we arrived at their sanctuary, it started to rain.

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The painful death rattle rite of passage session I had with the bone setter..

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The bone setter is actually a superhuman..

He was struck by lightning 6 (or 7?) times.

He accidentally dosed himself with a several hundred doses of Kambo frog medicine

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He says he knew that I was a dominatrix.

I asked how.

He said it was the way I gave him access.

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I did strip down completely for the session.

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When A2 went, she went from screaming to melodic singing to make the pain more bearable..

 

Stranded at the sanctuary

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How many rides does it take to get A2 and I to where we want to go?

5..

 

 

What I spent money on:

$100 for a Lyft ride from Hudson to Kerhonkson to see the Awak Bone Setter Healer at their home, which happened to be a magical sanctuary

$225 for the most painful session I’ve ever had on a massage table, where I let out a death rattle for a good 20 minutes

$60 on tinctures at the Healer’s sanctuary: cilantro, metex, and something for my tendons (i.e.i arthritis issue)

$18 on a lithium stone (which was the first time I’ve come across one, all the mines are becoming extinct)

$100 for the Yellow cab and Lyft ride that I split with A2 as we tried to make our way home

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What I put inside me: special herbal tea J made for me arthritis, orac green juice, banana, Bulletproof Mint Chip Collagen Protein bar that I got from Breakup Bootcamp and ate on the car ride to the Good Fight Herb shop, matcha balls that Chef E made and we got to take home the rest of the batch with us in a tupperware and on the ride to the Sanctuary in Kerhonkson I had one (or two?); (after my session with S the bone setter)nettles tea that T just got and I found in her tea drawer which she made me a pot of , some of the leftover quinoa kale slaw salad that chef E made for dinner on Sunday night, another matcha ball while we were trying to detangle T’s golden necklaces;

Tuesday, June 11, 2019 11:25pm

 

Dear U,

I’m in a very meditative state.

12:11pm

Dear U,

I just meditated and masturbated and meditated

since I last wrote to you.

Good call.

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I’m not in a rush to go out, walk about, and soak in the sun.

It’s another beautiful day here in NY.

Everyone’s telling me I lucked out with the weather.

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I feel compelled to stay in and start a ritual of getting some journalling/pervetting done before I go out.

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Funny how before being here, I was slightly dreading that I was gonna be in NY for 2 weeks. A week longer than I usually am here for. And a week more away from my Berkeley sanctuary.

But now that I’m here, almost a week into it, I’m so glad I’m staying a week longer.

It’s only today that I felt ready to reach out to my friends to let them know I’m in town.

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I’m making reservations..

ABC Kitchen for the Asian Domme Dinner

Gabriel Kreuther for dinner with me, C, T and C’s friend, a former Israeli CIA guy

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It’s 1:44pm. I just spent the last hour crafting and editing down an email to F, the woman I met at abcv last Friday, asking if she’s open to coffee or dosa to continue our conversation.

Funny how more time is needed to scale an email back, and chop any parts that sounds like it might be coming from my fantasy.

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My fantasy or vision is to connect and collaborate with her to help start a matriarchal revolution.

That’s all.

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There’s an art to sounding not needy..

It takes a lot of practice

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