Sunday, 11.11.18 9:09am


Dear You,

Today’s the day. It’s 11:11. I retreat.

I’ve been waking up so alert these past few days.

I’ve been sweating profusely through my underarms and I feel slim again. In . fact I’m sweating like crazy right now. I think the intermittent fasting is working and maybe I’m in ketosis.

I still have some packing and tidying up to do. I need to water my trees. And pack some books that I’m not supposed to read.

I didn’t tell you, I made a promise to myself (and you can hold me to it) I’m not going to buy another book until I finish reading one that I have. I’ll keep track of that here.

I’m going to be more efficient. Less compulsive buying of vitamins and books..

I’m also going to declutter when I get back.


It still smells smokey outside.


I’m going to miss writing you. I wake up thinking about what I want to you.

I wonder if this week will change that.


What are my intentions?

I hope I will deepen my meditation practice and integrate it into my life.

I hope I will discipline myself to do the work I need to do. On myself. On Pervette.


I have 2 hours to get ready. I need to stop by the dungeon on my way.

I want to get there early and settle in.

I wander what my work meditation will be?


I know I already said this,

I’m going to miss writing to you.

I don’t want to stop, even now..

I don’t know what’s on the other side.

But I’ll be happy to see you there.





Nov 11-18, 2018

Insight Meditation Center, Santa Cruz


I will be in silence…


Back to my previous week

(picture of sunrise from my roof)