Nascent

(adj.) Just coming into existence and beginning to display signs of future potential

 

That’s exactly where Pervette is at. At the very very beginning. In its nascent stage. Where I’m very keenly aware that it doesn’t look like much right now. Just a few pages that eventually lead to an end in the rabbit hole. That’s why I’m not quite ready to tell anyone to go visit Pervette. But I figure if you made it this far, I’m not afraid to show you the awkward and ungainly process of building Pervette. Right now I’m just carving out the structure with placeholder text. I have no grand plan for the architecture yet. I’m just feeling my way and writing as fast as I can as I go. I’m pretty embarrassed with the free writing that I’m putting out there. But if I tell you and myself it’s just a drafty rough draft and will eventually get better, it makes it easier to put it out there. Besides I’m just happy that I actually have a live site with which I can author pages. The process to get to this point took more time and learning than I thought. So now that I’m here, I’m not gonna wait till it’s perfect (which is what I usually do) to show it to you. You get to see my bad writing, you get to see the spare and bare bones, and how these pages will eventually evolve into something I’m more proud of. You get to see how Pervette grows. Along with it, you get to see how I grow. Because writing and sharing is still a very difficult and vulnerable process that I’m learning  how to get used to. But each day, as I write a little bit more, I can feel my fears dissolving. This is the process of becoming more real. Everything, even myself,  is a work in progress, so it’s time. To let go..