Dear U,

Welcome to the 11th or so iteration of Pervette. If you’ve been here before, then you might have noticed that I decided to change things up a bit on the homepage. Gone for now is the yes page and here I am floating among things that are shaping Pervette.1All the icons you see are actually my things, yep that’s my laptop, hourglass, headphones, notebook and Cutie

Why the new layout? As I’ve been cranking away and getting closer to sharing Pervette with you, I remember my original vision for this space: I want to create a community. I want to connect with like-minded pervs (like you) and make art and love together.2Because that’s all I want to do: I want to make my love my art, and my art my life, and my life my art. I want to be a life artist (or as the Germans would say, a Lebenskunstler)

And so if my goal is to create a community, I realize I need to make Pervette a place that inspires you3yes you to want to call this place home. And a labyrinthine rabbithole might not be a place you would call home. 

And I recognize that the older iteration of Pervette made it especially hard for you to know what’s new with Pervette. The only way to know if I changed or added anything was to go down through all paths that I’ve created to see if I added more pages to the path, which can be pretty fucking tedious.

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So the home page now has more options:

If you click on me, it will lead you down the original rabbithole where you can play with the different sides of me

 

I remember how when I first launched Pervette back in 2015, it was a community blog and I loved how fellow Dommes and SW and evenly subs reached out to me and wanted to contribute their writing and share their secrets on Pervette. It was incredible.

I loved how the site inspired others to share their story.

So why did it all stop?

It was because of me..

And my discontent with the structure of things..

I wanted to share myself in a more intimate way, but I wasn’t inspired by the structure of a  blog. I wanted to go deep, but I couldn’t with a blogroll. The structure was too formal and linear for me to get intimate. I couldn’t open myself up right there, just a click away from the homepage. It’s like meeting someone and right after hello, you get naked and talk about your feelings.4even for me, whose work entails that, it still felt a little too fast  It just didn’t feel right to talk about something deeply intimate (like my shame and secrets) on the front page and have it move down the blogroll in a linear manner, with no true connection to the next post sitting before or after it. Even though there was a unifying theme (secrets at the time), the structure of the site felt too decontextualized and disconnected for my soul to pour itself into.

It felt like my soul was saying: Not here, not like this, this is not how I want to express myself.

And so I stopped writing and sharing, and started visioning.5and talking to my soul, thanks to iboga If not here and not like this, then how or where can I share myself?

A very fuzzy vision came to me. I felt something before I even saw it. It was a dark, warm intimate place.  Womb-like.

Then a few months later, I saw a black screen with pink letters being typed out..

I saw writing on a page that kept on growing and changing every time you visit it.

I saw icons, links and footnotes that appeared when you look again, and when you click on it, it leads you down a rabbithole..

Everything was a mystery. The whole site felt like it was alive. It was always changing and always evolving, like the way a person would, when you got to know them more deeply.

This space rewarded the curious and adventurous. This place makes you want to look again and harder. This place makes you want to make the more interesting choices.

This rabbit hole has treasures within its darkest corners and can teach you something deeply valuable if you dig deep enough and work for it. This place can change the way you think and see the world if you open yourself to its unfolding paths.

This place is a Permanently Evolving Radical Vision.

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I’ve searched the web all over. Is there anything like this? Who can I connect with to help me create this? I kept on searching.6fyi: google search words “cool unique website” yields nothing cool or unique There was nothing like this out there.

It took me a year and a half7and 5000 miles to Berlin to find a perv8a perv (as defined here) is someone who has a permanently evolving radical vision who got my vision and knows a thing or two about Wordpress to help me build out the structure of this site and show me how to create these pages.

And it took me another 2 1/2 years to create hundreds of pages (that you may never see) as I  learn how to let my soul express itself through streams of consciousness.

There’s a lot more to this story about my journey that I’ll share at some point and in some level here.

And so here we are: I did it. I created this place that up until now, didn’t exist anywhere but in my mind. And at times people thought I was losing my mind when I kept on talking about this place that was everything to me9and when they visited it and saw pages that led to nowhere, they really thought I was losing my mind.

So what you’re seeing is a part of what’s inside me. You’re seeing a place my soul can call home.

Yes, it doesn’t look like much. And yes, it’s confusing as fuck. Yes, yes, I know and see all of its limitations. I’m just at the beginning (again), and this is just a fraction of my evolving and neverending vision.

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And even though you may not see all of what I see in my mind, I hope you can feel something10like my soul trying to communicate to you

This is the beginning of me trying to get intimate with you.

And it’s the beginning of me trying to build a community11with you in it

(Oh right, that was my original point I was trying to get to before I got carried away with the evolution of Pervette)

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So…I created the new homepage so that you can quickly plug into what’s new with Pervette, rather than having to go down all the rabbitholes to figure out which path has been expanded.

The Hourglass icon that you clicked on lands you here to my memos to you. It’s here where I write to you about my current thinking and process behind building out Pervette. And tell you what’s new and on my mind.

I should preface that this writing to you is raw and very stream of consciousness. It’s not so different from my journal writing to you, other than there’s a more defined focus on pervette.

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This post here has gotten pretty long. I’ll stop here. The short of it is: Welcome to another new beginning of Pervette. Theses icons will eventually lead to channels that will be updated more often so you can get a sense of the new content that’s being created. It’s also here that I’m going to invite you into sharing your thoughts, stories and wisdom..

How I’m going to do that, I’m not quite sure yet.

But I’ll keep you posted..

 

Colette

 

 

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