PAIN PORTAL TOOLKIT¹as a fellow pain portal traveler i’ve collected a few insights, tools and practices along the way in my journey through several pain portals and so here is what helped me move through the pain..

 

TOOLS & PRACTICES²i’m just listing them now, but i will expand upon each practice and how/why it works for me

journaling & writing

meditation

prayer

long walks

reading

music

contemplation

energy healing

chanting

dancing

exercise

sigils

talking to empathic listeners³esp with those who understand your pain

plant medicine⁴if you haven’t got into meditation, sometimes plant medicine can be your gateway into meditation. psyllocibin, ayahausca, iboga, then there’s animal medicine, like bufo or kambo, my advice is don’t do it until you feel called to it, listen to your body, the wisdom from your body will know when the time is right. sit with a trusted and experienced guide. this is powerful medicine that has potential to heal but if done in the wrong setting or if you’re not of sound mind, it can do a lot of damage. so be careful. err on not doing it if any part of you doesn’t feel ready. and if you do sit with the medicine, start with a small dose. treat the medicine like a portal  and not just a drug for recreational use. allow the medicine to be your teacher, surrender to it, and allow it to offer you new ways of seeing yourself and being in the world. then cultivate your meditation practice so that you can access that elevated altered state anytime you want

micro-dosing⁵on magic mushrooms, this is a game-changer, the key is to set your intention and find what your right micro-dose is, be precise, if you bite more than your micro dose you’re going to feel wobbly or trippy, then you know you’ve gone too far, that’s a mezodose. find your dose and choose your protocol, mine is 50mg every other day. you can micro-dose up to 3 months at a time, after that take at least a one month break. every time you micro-dose, set your intention

adaptogens⁶my faves are: chaga, lion’s mane, mucuna pruriens, moringa, ashwaghanda, maca, he show wu, reishi

spiritual medium

creating an altar

the pattern on the trestleboard

carving space & time for self-care

creating a spi/ritual practice

flaneuring

crystals and stones

helping others

make art

go offline

 

 

INSIGHTS

 

pretend the pain portal is a bdsm session

that the universe offered to you

you trust its timing

and you accept the challenge

to move through the entire session

like a good sub

you don’t resist what’s being doled out to you

you don’t try to top from the bottom

and ask for less pain and discomfort

and more pleasure

you trust everything you’re experiencing

every sensation

every feeling

every breakdown

is exactly as it should

you allow yourself to be stripped of all your layers

shed all your comforts and material security

to be seen as you are

naked and vulnerable

.

you allow yourself to feel the pain and discomfort

to unravel your ego

you surrender

to the unknown

to the pain

to every moment

you keep saying

yes

i accept

thank you

 

(more to write)

 

 

 

 

 

allow the pain to shed light on your heart’s desire⁷because its not just the end of this pain that you desire, the pain is pointing to something your soul truly wants. 

 

(work in progress, so much more to write, eventually every tool will be expanded into its own page)