you might be wondering what’s going on? how come all of these blog posts seem like unfinished drafts?

because they are.

inspiration strikes and i start a new post to catch the idea before it disappears. i write wants to come out. and oftentimes my adhd brain hops on another idea or i get distracted and do something else. but i have the intention of returning and expanding upon my point. so none of these posts are actually ever finished or complete. they’re more like conversations or monologues that i circle back to, revisit, change my mind, erase and rewrite. just write now.

i’m writing the way my brain works. and my brain doesn’t think about things in perfect essay form. it’s a jumble of thoughts and ideas, lists and sidenotes.

if i made myself finish every post like i would an article i would have nothing posted. here i’m giving myself the freedom to write with literal abandon. i write. abandon. and come back later with more thoughts.

so in a way none of these posts are read, and then dead. you don’t keep scrolling and move on to the next. you come back, and see how i’ve expanded and evolved my thoughts and writing. so it’s read and come back and go deeper with me. because every post is alive and evolving.

i’m giving you what i want. and i don’t know about you but i have a hunger for reality (a la david shields). i crave writing that feels raw and unpolished, even grammatically incorrect. it feels intimate. and real.

i think the topical structures of articles, essays, books and any medium out there force us to write and express ourselves in a way that limits the free wheeling mind.

the rigid mediums have limited the tone and texture of the message. i want this medium (or transmedia website) to be soft and permeable, shaped by the message that comes from the mind’s creative flow.

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i’m writing to you to know what i think and i think i was still working out why this non-structure works for me.

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i don’t think linearly. i don’t create linearly. my creativity moves in circles and cycles. i need to circle back to expand the thought and idea. thoughts and ideas should always be evolving in my perspective.

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one should find the medium that fits their creative process. and if no medium out there works for you.  you should create your own. that’s what i’m doing right now. and all i can say is that this feels good. and i’m just feeling my way to being in creative flow. which is what i’m aiming for. not a finished product. but a process that feels good to me.

writing with no constraints feels really good to me.

and i think you’re still here reading this, i’m correct in my theory that we crave something different that the limited mediums that we are working with.

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in this space, nothing is really polished and complete. it’s all raw, evolving and subject to change.

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terrance mckenna said something alonng the lines of

create novelty, that is our purpose here.