a line a day..

9/1/25-

9/2/25- coach sister, she’s becoming aware of her shadow, i tell her i’m proud of her. i go to benji’s jewish deli to get chicken soup for mom, it’s garbage. order atusko kudo latex, a gift from s.

9/3/25- morning rituals, make small meals for mom, she feels better, go to bookstore, gloaming walk in the park

9/4/25- posted on ig about my summer of pain after a 3 month break. outpouring of well wishes and kind comments. got nails done. mom gets iv.

9/5/25- flew back to berkeley. first time back since may. my eyes got wet reconnecting with my house. dumplings, boba, ice cream. got a new planner at east bay booksellers.

9/6/25- flaneur at the park, strolling through campus, it’s already back to school. putting tlc into the house, watering my plants, tidying it up for tomorrow. cook dinner.

9/7/25- pulled it off last minute with no stress. 3 student mistresses, 2 subs, me and a documentary crew exploring happiness and bdsm. ramen shop for dinner. full moon lunar eclipse.

9/8/25- perfectly still air day in my backyard, writing. being home reminds me how much i missed my life here. hike at inspiration point, izakaya dinner. our waitress’ name is utopia.

9/9/25- fly back to oc to be with mom. her legs are all skin and bones. i look up rice cooker congee and oyakodon recipes. i miss my berkeley utopia.

9/10/25- mom had her first chelation. she doesn’t feel good. neither do i. tried making oyakodon, mom said the smell of it made her sick. she threw up. feeling deflated.¹charlie kirk was murdered. i probably shouldn’t have, but I watched the video of his murder on twitter

9/11/25- back to writing on pervette, started this page, mom is nauseous and in pain. the writing helped me find the energy to create a post

9/12/25- i post about & did an email blast announcing the magic hour call, pain is a portal. i tell mom she needs to walk more. she goes outside with me

9/13/25- happened upon a fair, started planning for pain is a portal then realize just share all of your pain portals, i got this

9/14/25- we gathered and opened up the portal. i bared it all, so many cleansing tears, so many brave shares. our story is the medicine

9/15/25- yesterday inspired me to write, so I wrote pain is a portal & accept the initiation & the pain portal toolkit, mom is in pain, stays in bed, i cancel my trip tomorrow

9/16/25-

exploring different ways to write everyday

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